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October 12, 2013
I have been seeing the 11:11 a lot once again as well as other similar numbers like 04:44 and 02:22. It is always like this and has increased in frequency. I have been on the computer more and other devices so it could be a coincidence, but then I never have coincidences. I feel definitely this is some kind of messaging.
Actually this is the Universe IMing me. Without going too much into it I feel the Universe is saying to get ready because some kind of change is about to occur. I have been feeling a little drained lately, my energy focused on certain projects.
Last night went to bed early feeling so drained. Closed eyes lightness appeared, opened eyes to see that there was no physical external source. Closed eyes again, this occurred several times. Allowed the head to move as I went to sleep.
I am feeling the urge to take Salvia Divinorum once again, next week maybe.
September 16, 2013
Last night went to bed around 11pm. As I slept there were some genital movements and feeling of a presence nearby. This evening I went through an emotional outpouring requesting for something from a particular energy that I had encountered. I asked this unknown source to reveal itself more clearly really wanting to have a solid connection. The following experience may have been due to this or completely unrelated, also did practice OM in the evening.
Slowly drifting off to sleep with those sexual type sensations, not feeling aroused just sleepy. All of a sudden I'm aware, there is a rapid vibrating inside the brain. It felt like something entering the brain - In and out in a continuous flow. Honestly, felt like a thousand penises penetrating my brain.
I was feeling afraid at this stage, thought my brain was about to be done with. I tried to move, there was heaviness in the head. Felt paralyzed but eventually managed to snap out some time after 12am. The vibration was dissipating. Pressures are still in the head at this stage.
September 10, 2013
I have been doing something lately, for now not reiterating explicit details. It is something that I know I shouldn't do at this stage - the result has been crazy head inner thrashing. It is very much like as described in others experiences. Feels like a penis on the head.
Last night had a very scary braingasm - I was not expecting it. Came on suddenly after leg tingling energy traveled upwards. Base of spine thumping and energy running up the spine.
Breathed deeply for the most part. Relaxed and tried to sleep it off. There was a womans voice in my head in my native tongue saying 'They have been talking for 4 hours' repetitively - I felt sick for unknown reasons. Then images flashed in my head - a perception different to seeing. Didn't care for it, was not bothered. Turning over my left ear leaned against the flat pillow. There was a beating that sounded very sexual, felt like it was coming from inside the body yet simultaneously outside.
I want to explore this further, I probably shouldn't but I'm willing to take the risk.
August 30, 2013
This morning I had several very fascinating lucid dreams. In one I recall I was in my house, I knew I was dreaming, felt things around me which was hazy at first. As I was near the garden door realized I should go outside but things were going blank. As I recalled what the garden looked like the image of it formed, somehow the memory of my physical existence was blending in that dream state but there were some major differences. Did not focus on these too much.
I got up on the brick fenced up wall - looked very different yet I had a dejavu like experience - felt like I had been there in some reality - not physical reality that I'm aware of now.
I had to balance as I walked, there was a long cord, on this cord some ball with sharp points was transporting back and forth. First it looked cool and then I was aware it could be dangerous.
There was another incident where again I was in the kitchen. Wasps and other types of flies swarming around (in physical seeing a lot of wasps). A very unusual fluffy white bee looking insect was hovering around me - it got stuck on my clothes. Afraid that it may sting me I slowly tried to take it off.
There was more but I think what's more important than the incidents is what I learned from them. For one, the images were taking shape from memory bank and there were intervals of blank darkness then the images of that reality would form. Even to feel sensations needed memory recognition, I remember at some point could not feel anything and had to ponder what it might feel like and then the sensations were felt as what I perceived from memory.
I feel this all applies to this physical reality. Lately I've been immersed in the Sutra Texts, understanding and learning through these things that had not even crossed my mind.
August 25, 2013
It's been a while since I last experienced Sleep paralysis, forgot how annoying it could be. In the morning around 7am I relaxed and dozed off. Suddenly unable to move. My legs were in an awkward position. Tried lifting hands and arms but it was difficult. Soon with some force rolled over and landed on the floor, I felt like I was dehydrated. Got up and all groggy tried to pour some water. Some moments later I woke up and realized that all that was just a false awakening.